i cant wait
morning sex. mmmhmmmmm. ;)
i keep dropping my phone.
sad. imishyewsomuchhhhhhh. and its only been 5 hours. but im gonna have a really good week. got my roo tickets today. sooooooooexcited. date night with ashley. hangover at mall of ga 12:30 pm. BETHERE. its downpouring outside. i had to go out to my car and try to roll up the windows and get my guitar and now im all wet. :(
today im trying to keep my head up. its pretty fucking difficult though.. im just feeling un noticed in every aspect. i wish people could pick up on the little things. i wish shit was easier. i wish people cared. its not like im asking to be the center of attention, im just asking to be included. i didnt know the game we were playing even had a set of rules. im tired of complaining. and im...
im looking for you.
i want you to be the one to pick me up every time you give me a hug. i want you to do things for me just to make me smile. i want you to express yourself to me through your musical talents and ambitions. i want you to take control every time you feel like holding back. i want you to trust me to take care of you to the best of my ability. i want you to have fun with me and laugh everyday...
stuck watching my moms place till sunday. unless the world ends. then, just until saturday. i wish you didnt leave today. forever alone.
fuck off. stop creeping on my shit. leave me alone. just move your cursor over to the (x) on the top of this page, and go find someone else’s life to negitavely impact. thanks.
today went really well. had a great girls night with Ashley. i spent like 50$ on Issac. he’ssoooooospoiled. :) i’m missing you, and you wanna sleep. which i can understand, seeing as we didn’t go to bed till 6:30 this morning. ;) looking forward to tomorrow. and hoping some of this sadness will go the fuck away. i don’t even understand why i care, and its not like i...
looks like I’m moving in with ashley.
"do you believe what you're saying?"
“yeah, right now, but not that often.”
so i must say that
last night was one of the best ive had in a while. thanks to ashley. :) i tattooed myself, had a great conversation with you, and have a pretty clear head today. well, as clear as it can be.. :/ i wish making yourself happy was easier.. you would think it would be simple, and yet its easier said than done. drinking tonight with jawsh. i hope its just me, him, and his friends. on a better note,...
can someone so inconsistent mess up so consistently?
Text me when you see this.
at 1:12 am I drove past the exit I knew would lead me to your house. A wave of discontent and and an immediate depressive state swept through me. The gps in my lap set a sickly blue stage light on my face, and it was obvious to the other passenger that I was upset. Fuck, I’m sure other drivers could see it. When I got home, I was greeted by feelings I haven’t felt since I left Jon. I...
today feels like its missing something.. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmiwonderwho.
almost lost my dog tonight and I’m pretty shook up about. Beginning to feel the repercussions of being reckless. :/
Tried loving, but I guess you could not love me.
is more important than intelligence.
It feels good to have mostly fixed things. And I don’t regret one second of it. Actually, I loved all of it. Late nights that faded into days, when hours became irrelevant and there was only light and dark.. smoking and laughing at our retarded animals, and sneaking into that pool, Those are just a few of the amazing memories I have with you. I don’t even care about holding your hand,...
That was gay.
It’s been a long day living with this, It’s been a long time since I felt so sick. I took a long walk straight back home, i could’ve walked back to San Francisco. I used to long for time alone, i used to long for a place of my own. Now I’m losing faith in everything I’m lost, so lost, i’m lost at sea, you’ll see. I used to long for broken bones, i used...
And I claim I’m not excited with my life any more, so I blame this town, this job, these friends, but the truth is it’s myself. And I’m trying to understand myself and pinpoint where i am, but when I finally get it figured out, I’ve change the whole damn plan. Noose tied myself in, and I’ve tied myself too tight. Im talking shit about a pretty sunset, blanketing...
Charlie wants you to know,
That i never meant to cause you pain, I never thought I’d be the one who took the fall. I got lost in the moment, Assholes like to test the limit.. The look on you is killing me, and I’m drowning in shame. But don’t feel bad, because I never feared consequences. Hate regrets more than apologies.
i am clean. :) and i have submitted my paper and my test. (late) :( but who cares. now, a night for myself.
i have to pee.
wave goodbye to the past.
you’ve got your whole life to lead.
I don't know
What to do anymore. Seeing Kyle like this really hurts me. But I don’t want anyone.. I wanna go on my own. Make my own path. Do more than one great thing in my life. And I’m not sorry about hurting anyone, because I want to go back to my old self. The one who lives recklessly and acts on impulse, and this is phase one.. I’m tired of living every single day trying to be a...
oh my god.
what am i doing here?
and i know,
charrrrrlie wants to know
if you can wait. ;)